Liveliness

So what has happened in my life since October? Not much and more of the same. Excited yet? Well, I haven't completely stagnated. I've decided for sure that I want to teach but I want to teach in America. At least for a little while. It would be fun to go and traipse around a new country but I don't think that's for me just yet. Maybe I'm a little too anxious to grow up but I kind of want the career thing and maybe even a real relationship. I'll try to figure out how to get all that but for now, step one: back to school.

Where Do We Go From Here?

So here's the deal, I don't know which direction to take my career anymore. I don't know if I should get out of country for a little while or keep attaining more credentials. If I decide to expatriate then I'll most certainly be working strange hours and doing strange things. If I stay in America I'll be teaching. Well, either way I'm going to be teaching but in America I'll be teaching history whereas in a different country I'll be teaching English. Which sounds more appealing to me? Not sure. I don't really care for teaching ESL but I would like to see the world. I really would like to teach history but I'll most certainly be stuck in Texas. No matter what choice I make now I'll be teaching in America eventually and hopefully going to graduate school. The main problem is trying to figure out what's keeping me here. It's not people or a job. I think its fear. Fear of the unknown and the future. When I think about my future I'm really a bit frightened. There's a lot of things that could happen that I nor anyone I know can control. I used to be able to operate without that kind of fear but now I'm not so sure if I know how to handle it anymore. More thoughts to come...

Preparation

Today was the first day of ESL certification. I was surprised in a few ways, positive and negative. When the website said it was taught at a freshman level course they weren't pulling any punches. After going through the gauntlet of Texas State's history department this stuff is cake. There also seems to be less of a collegiate atmosphere than I first assumed. There are a few older enrollees that have been in the workforce for many years already and are looking for a change. I just hope that after a certain age I won't have to do any extra certifications. Let's hope this isn't foreshadowing for the entire ESL career.

Where To?

It's been a while since I've updated my blog and it was honestly intentional. I felt that my blog had no direction, no true since of purpose. Segue-way= I felt my blog was similar in some respects to the feelings of anxiety and nervousness that come with graduating college and being on the precipice of the real world. It was with this notion that I felt that I should wait to update my blog until after graduation day in order to chronicle my journey from college to career. With that said, posts may be infrequent and far between due to the waiting game I have to play in order to move on to the next challenge in my life. In September, I begin the certification course to obtain my ESL teaching certification. What does this mean? I can't get a real job until after September but the job will almost certainly be overseas. Where? I won't find out until probably January. Until then, I'll probably post some entries on books I'm reading or have read or something else to pass my time.